Teetering..

I have kind of slack off the last couple of days. I really need to get my shit back on track. I had a "cheat" meal on Sunday night at my parents (and someone opened the Halloween candy early at their house). When I am trying to eat healthy, I really tend to turn in to a hobbit. I don't hang out with people much because I don't have control of what I can eat when I am at someone's house or if I go out to eat somewhere that I'm not familiar with. I have always been a really picky eater and I am kind of self-conscious about it.

I don't want to be the type of person that cannot have cheat meals, but I think that might be the case. I need to use my flex points and eat those types of things in small portions, while keeping myself accountable. Case in point, cheat meal Sunday happened and then my future FIL took me out to lunch on Tuesday, where I ordered a chicken sandwich (which I sorta thought was grilled, and ended up being fried!). It was so good, but so bad! My body was so mad at me! So basically I have had a handful of day where I have been eating mindlessly and I need to get back on track. I feel like I self-sabotaged my Jillian Challenge, I did so great for 27 days and now I am teetering on blowing it all to shit. I am going finish, I will be a couple days late doing so, but two, maybe three more days of shredding and I will get to finally do my measurements and see my results! After that I am going to figure out my plan for the next 30 days. So rather than siting here and relishing in my failure setback, I am going to get my shit together and get back on track. There are going to be setback and life is going to get in the way of my plans, so I have to get my shit together and do it!

Still Shredding!

So this morning I put my big girl panties on and finally moved it up to Level 3 of 30 DS. It was hard, but I think I like it better, it wasn't impossible to do, but it will take me a couple days to get the moves down, since I lack me some serious coordination.

Speaking of which, I totally bit it during level 2 this morning (yes I did two in a row!). I was doing the pendulum lunges, which aren't too bad anymore (still doing the modified-ish move), and some how I lost my balance/twisted my ankle resulting in my ass hitting the floor and my weight smashing my thumb.  However, I got myself back up and continued on with the next move. This is HUGE! I know it just seems like no big deal, but a month ago, I would have gotten pissed off, frustrated, maybe shed a few tears, and I would have sat on the couch and quit.

I still can't believe I have stuck with this challenge, there have been a few days where I had to make up because I missed a day due my awesome night shift scheduled, but even with those I am really proud of myself. I don't know if this is the time that I will stick with it, but I do know that it is the time that it feels different. I feel good, I feel stronger, and feel proud of myself. So that in itself tells mel that this time is different for sure.

This is my little workout buddy, Zoey - She is obsessed with that ball and she stands over my face anytime I am on the mat for a move in an attempt to distract me from Jillian.

Do it!

I am on my way to being SHREDDED! I have done 11 days of the shred and I think I am actually "liking" it - and by that mean hating it and sweating my ass off so much that I want to die. I only missed one day, and I made up for it by doing two in a row this morning. I did my last level 1 and moved on to level 2. Holy cow! Level 2 is so much harder! I still have to figure out exactly how to do some of the new moves. This challenge makes me want to be better. I want to eat on plan and work at being healthy. It's like if I'm going to bust my ass every single day for this whole month, I am NOT going to blow my hard work by eating shit. I am feeling good and feeling sore, but I really hope that this is really clicking for me right now and I can't wait to keep going!

Jillian is My Bitch Too!

So I did it! I'm on my way to being a shredhead! Day one of my 31 day challenge. This was my first time EVER doing the 30 Day shred, I have never even watched it out of curiosity before.. That's how scared I was of Jillian. Now I get it.. I love her and hate her all at once.. Just like how I feel amazing and like death at the same time. I did every modified move I could, and I was really afraid to do the jumping jacks at first because if my crazy downstairs neighbor, but after I got going, I stopped caring and just went for it. Fuck em all, I'm going to get fit and I don't care about any of my old excuses!

I have been staring at my ML fit camp notifications for the past two weeks.. I kept thinking.. I could probably do that, but I never would commit to it and click yes. It finally clicked yes this morning.. I was laying around pretending to work on homework, when I realized that I need to kick my own ass in to gear. I reading everyone's plans and their comments on the Fit Club's FB page and it just all came together in my head. I really want do to this crazy thing that is 31 days of JM. I think I may have lost my mind, but maybe that's a good thing! I need to make my health number one. So I'm doing it. Now. No more excuses, 31 days of 30DS, this is my birthday present to myself, I'm going to change the one thing that I can change right now, me!