Teetering..

I have kind of slack off the last couple of days. I really need to get my shit back on track. I had a "cheat" meal on Sunday night at my parents (and someone opened the Halloween candy early at their house). When I am trying to eat healthy, I really tend to turn in to a hobbit. I don't hang out with people much because I don't have control of what I can eat when I am at someone's house or if I go out to eat somewhere that I'm not familiar with. I have always been a really picky eater and I am kind of self-conscious about it.

I don't want to be the type of person that cannot have cheat meals, but I think that might be the case. I need to use my flex points and eat those types of things in small portions, while keeping myself accountable. Case in point, cheat meal Sunday happened and then my future FIL took me out to lunch on Tuesday, where I ordered a chicken sandwich (which I sorta thought was grilled, and ended up being fried!). It was so good, but so bad! My body was so mad at me! So basically I have had a handful of day where I have been eating mindlessly and I need to get back on track. I feel like I self-sabotaged my Jillian Challenge, I did so great for 27 days and now I am teetering on blowing it all to shit. I am going finish, I will be a couple days late doing so, but two, maybe three more days of shredding and I will get to finally do my measurements and see my results! After that I am going to figure out my plan for the next 30 days. So rather than siting here and relishing in my failure setback, I am going to get my shit together and get back on track. There are going to be setback and life is going to get in the way of my plans, so I have to get my shit together and do it!

Still Shredding!

So this morning I put my big girl panties on and finally moved it up to Level 3 of 30 DS. It was hard, but I think I like it better, it wasn't impossible to do, but it will take me a couple days to get the moves down, since I lack me some serious coordination.

Speaking of which, I totally bit it during level 2 this morning (yes I did two in a row!). I was doing the pendulum lunges, which aren't too bad anymore (still doing the modified-ish move), and some how I lost my balance/twisted my ankle resulting in my ass hitting the floor and my weight smashing my thumb.  However, I got myself back up and continued on with the next move. This is HUGE! I know it just seems like no big deal, but a month ago, I would have gotten pissed off, frustrated, maybe shed a few tears, and I would have sat on the couch and quit.

I still can't believe I have stuck with this challenge, there have been a few days where I had to make up because I missed a day due my awesome night shift scheduled, but even with those I am really proud of myself. I don't know if this is the time that I will stick with it, but I do know that it is the time that it feels different. I feel good, I feel stronger, and feel proud of myself. So that in itself tells mel that this time is different for sure.

This is my little workout buddy, Zoey - She is obsessed with that ball and she stands over my face anytime I am on the mat for a move in an attempt to distract me from Jillian.

6 Pounds Lost.. and I Won't Be Finding Them Again!

Yesterday was weigh in  #3 for this month, and I am pretty pleased with my progress this month.  When I lost weight two years ago, I lost 20 pounds over about two months, I got down to 154 (from 175),  I maintained for a while, lost a few more pounds, but the lowest I have ever been (in the last few years) is 150. I would LOVE to see the 140's! My personal goal right now it to be 142 or less when Ryan comes home in the beginning of January. I think that's a reasonable goal, I have always had a hard time when I get to this point. I'm not sure if it is because of my body or my mind that I have struggled getting in to the 140's.

This is my progress since starting the Jillian Micheals Challenge, I am down 6 pounds in the last three weeks!  I am definitely happy that I am losing and I am going to keep this up next month with Ripped in 30. I think this was the kick in the ass I needed to get started and I'm hoping it helps me get to the 140's sometime soon! I have stuck to the challenge pretty well, there have been a few days that I didn't have time, but I have been really strict with myself and I make myself make those up, even if it means doing two in row. One day, at the beginning of level 2 I started and stopped and started and stopped, and no matter how much I told my brain to do it, by body was just not having it. It only happened that one day, I chalked it up to a rest day, and that is the only day that I really did not do a workout for. I could probably still make it up so that I can really say I did 31 workouts in 31 days. I'm pretty sure my OCD will get the best of me and I will end up making it up.

My mini goal for this week is to eat better, I have been sticking to my WW points, but there are some days where I probably should have eaten more fruits and veggies, but instead I had an extra 100 cal pack for a snack. I am by no means a clean eater, I think I might be too picky for that, but I am really trying to expand my horizons a little more and eat a more balanced diet, rather than just focusing on staying within my points range.

Do it!

I am on my way to being SHREDDED! I have done 11 days of the shred and I think I am actually "liking" it - and by that mean hating it and sweating my ass off so much that I want to die. I only missed one day, and I made up for it by doing two in a row this morning. I did my last level 1 and moved on to level 2. Holy cow! Level 2 is so much harder! I still have to figure out exactly how to do some of the new moves. This challenge makes me want to be better. I want to eat on plan and work at being healthy. It's like if I'm going to bust my ass every single day for this whole month, I am NOT going to blow my hard work by eating shit. I am feeling good and feeling sore, but I really hope that this is really clicking for me right now and I can't wait to keep going!

Ass Kicked.

I'm feeling frustrated today. I kicked ass yesterday on day 1 of 30DS, I knew I was going to be sore as fuck today - so I don't know why I'm surprised that I could barely do day 2. Anything that requires my legs doing more than walking right now it so painful. I was really sore when I woke up, but then I took a nap (since I was awake at 3am) for a couple hours and woke up so much more sore. Holy shit. I definitely don't feel that super awesome exercise high like I did yesterday. I finished it, cheating my way through jumping jacks and but-kickers... but at least I finished right? I'm going to just keep going, it's better than sitting around browsing pintrest doing homework on my ass all day. Seriously though, I am really trying not to let school be an excuse not to exercise, I probably waste an hour plus dickin around before I actually do anything productive for school, so I need to just workout or run and then start looking at pintrest my homework. Perhaps I need a 12 step program to kick this habit we call pintrest, it is seriously my crack.

Next up for tonight: throwing out anything tempting and them a much overdue grocery trip tonight. I absolutely need to go get some healthy groceries, my fridge is barren. I walk a thin line when my food rations are low, they make calling up my fav pizza place seem like such a good idea when I am starving. Maybe I should take my before pictures, print em out and plaster them to my fridge. That might deter my junk food habit. Maybe.

Jillian is My Bitch Too!

So I did it! I'm on my way to being a shredhead! Day one of my 31 day challenge. This was my first time EVER doing the 30 Day shred, I have never even watched it out of curiosity before.. That's how scared I was of Jillian. Now I get it.. I love her and hate her all at once.. Just like how I feel amazing and like death at the same time. I did every modified move I could, and I was really afraid to do the jumping jacks at first because if my crazy downstairs neighbor, but after I got going, I stopped caring and just went for it. Fuck em all, I'm going to get fit and I don't care about any of my old excuses!

I have been staring at my ML fit camp notifications for the past two weeks.. I kept thinking.. I could probably do that, but I never would commit to it and click yes. It finally clicked yes this morning.. I was laying around pretending to work on homework, when I realized that I need to kick my own ass in to gear. I reading everyone's plans and their comments on the Fit Club's FB page and it just all came together in my head. I really want do to this crazy thing that is 31 days of JM. I think I may have lost my mind, but maybe that's a good thing! I need to make my health number one. So I'm doing it. Now. No more excuses, 31 days of 30DS, this is my birthday present to myself, I'm going to change the one thing that I can change right now, me!